Hello all, I am inspired and touched by all of the stories I have read here.
Everyone of you are heroes/heroines.
To be able to live with such disorders that makes you want to give up at time but yet you find the strength and courage, and you choose to continue to fight the good fight.
I myself do not suffer from mental illness but I have suffered and fought alongside my wife of 13 years. She has been diagnosed 3 different times with 3 different disorders, each worse than the one before. She was originally diagnosed with depression for years with things getting worse every year. Then she was diagnosed with bi-polar effective after about 8 years and then she was diagnosed with BPD.
Things had gotten so bad with her that I no longer knew the woman that i fell in love with and married. I was sleeping next to a stranger after 13 years. Finally with things at their worst, I had to have her committed. It was the worst thing I have ever had to do and it broke my heart to do it but I knew for her sake and we’ll being, it had to be done. I was a monster and I betrayed her which ended my marriage.
When she was released from the hospital a few weeks later, I was there to greet her. The woman that walked through the doors was the woman that i had fell in love with and married.
We talked and to my surprise, she told me how many times she had started to end her life but didn’t have the nerve. She told me the day she had the nerve to kill herself, my 15 year old son had removed my firearm from our house while I was at work. She wasn’t able to take her life that day and the next day I got her some help. She repeatedly apologized for all the hurt and pain she had cause. I didn’t remember any hurt or pain she caused because that wasn’t my wife doing and saying the things that were done and said so I looked past them. I told her she didn’t owe me an apology but a promise. I wanted her to promise me that no matter what is happening, to never give up her story.
The doctors found and prescribed her the right medication for her and To this day, we are continuing our story as she continues hers.
So, if you feel like your fighting alone, please tell someone because you don’t have to go trough this by yourself, there is all kinds of help out there and there are people waiting to help.
Please don’t suffer in silence.
-Picayune, MS 11/11/2018